This morning the Lord was sharing something with me I needed to be reminded of. Lately I have had a lot of things to do, little things piling up into huge stacks. On my best day I get a lot of stuff done and then do my own thing the rest of the day. On my worst days I get nothing done. This has left me feeling frustrated and useless. This morning however the Lord was sharing with me his heart and how this is not how he views me. Lately I have been living like a man who does things for God. Like if I don’t get through at least 5 things I need to do I have failed in some way. Like my life’s joy comes from the completion of things, rather than his abundant love. I have lived in a way that says “I do things so that I might feel whole at the end of the day.” Instead the Lord is reminding me that I have been made whole by his love and by no other means. I should not do things to feel some form of completeness but rather do things out of the completeness he has already given me. It is confusing cause both ways look the same from the outside. So that when we look at a great servant we think, “Oh jeez, I really need to get off my butt and do something.” When in reality they have not served out of their own strength but rather in response to the strength given to them by the Father. One way will leave us realizing that even on our good days we have not done anything worthy enough, and lead us into sadness. The other way will allow us to know wholeness and and do things out of a life filled with Joy.
I am still wrestling with application but I will figure it out.
